But you know what? I don't want to deal with this. It is far too annoying and far too tiring. It seems almost impossible for me to relax and just enjoy the great things that are right in front of me.
Last night my dad and I went out to eat and I remember thinking how cool it was. It is not that in the past I haven't enjoyed being around him and my family, it is just that last night I finally realized how important family can and should be for me. I know that I have good friends around me and people that care about me, but I don't feel like I deserve it. I am always unable to return the love to them that they show towards me.
So, what should I do? I have no idea. I just hope this anxiousness that is sitting on me would relieve, even just for a full day. I need to learn how to have more fun. Stop over thinking everything and just kind of go with the flow of life. In the process of learning this I hope I don't push the most important people to me, away from me.
I watched this video just a few minutes ago and I think it may be something awesome for me and I want to share it with you. It's Francis Chan speaking about taking risks.
Enjoy!
-brett
1 comment:
I will be praying about this for you. It really is freeing once you allow yourself to not worry and not over think things. I have dealt with this as well and can honestly say that turning your worrys or anxieties to prays helps tremendously. Allowing God to take those on and FULLY trusting them to Him, the only one that can be trusted with them, allows you to be at peace about things. We weren't created to worry and worrying and such is not from God at all. Once I figured out that when I worry it's not trusting whole heartedly in the Lord and that it wasn't pleasing to Him I stopped! I hope this helps you and that you can find the freeing peace that I have found only in the Lord. Love ya buddy!
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