the truth is.

am I choosing to get lost in Jesus?

am I choosing sin and flesh over righteousness and life?

am I complaining because the things that I want in life don't go exactly how I want?

am I loving certain things AND people because I want it/them or because God wants me to want these things?

am I being bold about Christ?

do I not care about people enough to share with them the truth of eternal life that they could have?




I'm glad I have a savior because most days, the truth is, I do things that I hate. Sin.

you.

I used to like posting lyrics of songs everywhere; on my blog, facebook status', text messages, etc. I've come to think that it is pretty cheesy to do that! But, for the last few days I have had a song stuck in my head that is almost %100 what I have been feeling, which is why I think it is stuck in my head. The coolest part about the song is that it has become a prayer of mine and I would love to share it with you. It is a beautiful song.

Stop the press, everything's a mess,
You can look alive, but you are not at rest.
And i-ideas are flowing through your head,
A million miles an hour while lying in your bed.
A lucid life you never thought you'd lead.
Are you working everyday?
Are you working just to bleed?
I know.

You're staring at the names of the famed that are dipped in gold
The feeling you deserve what you've heard
But it doesn't go away.

Oh, the tongues of men and angels
I speak but lack love.
Oh, love, will I stab you in the back?
Working everyday,
I'm afraid I forgot to show what's most important: love.

Here I am, dear Lord, tasting hints of fame
And I don't want it anymore
If it's not you that I gain
Wanna fall at your feet
Don't wanna fall from your peace

Have you ever been the man that just ran
When you knew that God was talking?
Have you ever heard his voice through the noise
But just let it go away?

Oh, the tongues of men and angels
I speak but lack love.
Oh, love, will I stab you in the back?
Working everyday,
I'm afraid I forgot to show what's most important: love.

Here I am, dear Lord, tasting hints of fame
And I don't want it anymore
If it's not you that I gain
Wanna fall at your feet
Don't wanna fall from your peace

A heart at rest is harder now
Don't let it go away
A hard earned pay, a hard earned pain
Right now they're just the same
What's the use, why work so hard
When it's not what you crave
When what you need is: love.

Here I am, dear Lord, tasting hints of fame
And I don't want it anymore
If it's not you that I gain
Wanna fall at your feet
Don't wanna fall from your peace

Of Men and Angels, The Rocket Summer

that's today...

...March 1.

Goals for this month..

* See if God wants me to stay at Starbucks; and if I don't stay, create a resume in order to get a job at a different coffee shop.

* Get on track financially; resort back to the budget that I was once on, so that like in the month of February if I have to spend 300 dollars on something like my car, it won't hurt.

* Figure out how to focus my mind. In the month of February I could not handle it most days. Mind has been ready to explode.

* Continue praying for those that I have been and more that come to mind.

* Above all else.. continue pursuing God; allowing Him to mold me.

-brett