a letter to the only one who is worhty to be called LOVE.

Father, tonight, this is where I paint my thoughts. I feel you are speaking to me, asking me to write and sort through my mind. God, I will begin with a prayer.

Father God, I adore You, I love You. You need to know that. I am sorry for the times I mess up and do not glorify You. I am here before you ready for words, actions, revelations, direction, but most importantly to declare that I ADORE YOU GOD. You are above all names and above ALL things. You have set the captives free and Your blood has washed us clean. Thank You. Thank You. God, I would like to ask for creativity along with fluent words to express myself. Lord, bless and anoint this time and these words. Use them in my life and in others. Your Spirit is real and here with all who believe. Father, all things ARE possible with the power and Love of Jesus Christ. Thank You for Calvary and thank you for loving me. I pray all these things in Your precious name, Abba Father. Amen.

Where to begin? Worship is all I can think about lately, and drums, but in the sense of worship. God, I trust that if I put all my effort into continuing to learn drums and into obeying you with money that You will open the doors. Patience is where I am at a loss. I love to worship You and the feeling of letting go of myself entirely, even for a moment, and thanking You. I earnestly want my life to be an example of You so much that when people speak to me it causes them to think of You and meet You. I have got to continue on with losing my life to find You. The fleshly things cause me to stumble and cause my heart to become callused. Of course it “feels” great to be close to You and be full of Joy, but God I want to be close to You for the sake of You and Your name. Not in order for me to be looked upon, but in order that You are shown through me. A life lead as an example to those who know God and have stepped away and a life lead for those who may have never met You to meet You.

That is all. I want to be used. I have never wanted to be used more. I will let You use me God. This is a case where being used by “someone” is so marvelous.

“ I see You hanging there upon a tree, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful.”

God, hear my prayer, here my words, they are all to You and all to further Your kingdom. You know the desires of my heart. Feed them Lord, in whatever way You know they need to be met. As prayers are rising up across the world Lord, hear us, Your children, we are crying out to You. We love You. We want to be with You. I want to be with You. I adore You. I will rest in You and You alone tonight. Not worrying about what comes after that. Thank You. Praise You. Goodnight my God. Goodnight.

futures.

As brother Kerry is home I've gotten a taste of the good lovin'. He has been such an influence on my life and I appreciate all the invitations to seeing God he has placed before me.

Over the past week I've been angry. Everyday. Im not sure where this anger is though I am sure it is coming from not "knowing" the next step of my life. I worry about this often, the next step that is. This worry that I have, God so graciously lifted off of me on Spring Break this year and lately I have not been seeking him strongly. In this I've allowed the lies of Satan to come in that I NEED to know my future life right now.

1 John 3:2-3 "Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when He appears, we shall be like Him, for we shall see Him as He is. Everyone who has this hope in Him purifies himself, just as He is pure."

So God, take my life and let it be all for YOU and for YOUR glory. Father, let me rejoice in YOU at all times and know that the plans of YOU stand firm forever. God, You are my life.

Amen.

receive it.

And the Spirit of God endures forever. We are His portion and He IS OUR PRIZE. His thoughts and love are ONLY peace for us. He is not confusing, HE IS TRUTH. We are broken and He is THE HEALER. He and HE ALONE is the ALMIGHTY KING. His Kingdom is being brought down to the earth! We are HIS LIGHTS. He SHINES through us. He does HIS works THROUGH us. We are chosen and loved by the Savior of the WORLD. He is with us NOW. We do not have to wait, the Holy Ghost dwells within our hearts. The heaviness we feel time to time is our Father in heaven FIGHTING for our soul, rising up against the evil thief. Do not worry, HE IS VICTORIOUS!! The war IS won! We can be and ARE saved. Believe in that, believe in Jesus that He came for us to lay down HIS life for our failures. we are not, HE IS.

HE LOVES US.

If i fail, will You still run after me?

My friend Benton introduced a song God gave to him to a group of men last night at Murder Creek. This song arose the idea that when we as humans are broken, bloody and dirty God still runs after us. We began the song and as the Spirit lead I began to sing and think about that I fail God time and time again, yet He still runs after me.

It is so easy to feel bad about yourself when you fail. It's almost as if we think God wants us to feel bad about things we have done. Honestly, I don't think that is what God wants at all. Satan wants us to dwell in our sorrows and beat up ourselves about them. We are breaking God's heart when we sit in our shame. The answer is to rejoice in God, rejoice in Him always.

To let God be lifted high in our lives is to let God invade our lives. Over time these things that bring us guilt and shame will be shown to us by God and cleansed by Jesus' blood. I am number one when it comes to beating myself up about life. I'm only beating myself up because I'm looking for the "RIGHT" way to live. Do you think that there is ONE right way to live? We should be more devoted to learning, living, and knowing God's will for mankind.

Back to the idea of God running to us. He is! It is so wonderful we could run so "far" from God and simply stop, turn around, and see Him. Chasing after us. He loves each and everyone one of us and only wants peace in our lives. No matter how messy things are, He is peace amongst that.

SO, thank you Benton for being open and sharing what God has given to you.

"the Lord is gracious
and slow to anger
He is rich in love
He is good to all"

Made alive!!

"The same power that conquered the grave lives in me, Your Love that rescued the earth lives in me!"

CHRIST IS RISEN!!!!!!